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hot_foot_steph) wrote2004-10-03 06:10 pm
hot_foot_steph) wrote2004-10-03 06:10 pm
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I am SO stressed out. EVERYTHING is due in October!!! I can't wait until November. Better yet, Christmas break.
I am so serious. I am freaking out. I just cannot DO all of this WORK!
I really don't think I'm going to apply for the position of Interim Director of Children and Youth at that church, because it would take up far too much of my time, and right now school is what I need to focus on. It really bugs me though, because I thought this was going to be a year in which I grow. Spiritually, emotionally, psychologically, but especially spiritually. And it really hasn't because I've had so much schoolwork to do. And my spiritual gift is leadership, so I'm an Impact Team leader (a team that does mini mission trips to various churches) and I'm not even being a good leader because school is the only thing on my mind. :( God, I thought leadership was my gift? Why, then, am I being bad at it? :(
Also, I think I'd have time for other stuff if it didn't take me so dag on long to do my schoolwork. Such as reading, takes me forever to read one chapter in a lousy textbook. Also, studying. Takes me forever to do that, too. I'm just not an effective studier. Not anymore. Not this semester. What has HAPPENED to me?
I thought you wanted me to go out and DO things this year God! Why am I so bogged down with school work?
Ugh.
I am so serious. I am freaking out. I just cannot DO all of this WORK!
I really don't think I'm going to apply for the position of Interim Director of Children and Youth at that church, because it would take up far too much of my time, and right now school is what I need to focus on. It really bugs me though, because I thought this was going to be a year in which I grow. Spiritually, emotionally, psychologically, but especially spiritually. And it really hasn't because I've had so much schoolwork to do. And my spiritual gift is leadership, so I'm an Impact Team leader (a team that does mini mission trips to various churches) and I'm not even being a good leader because school is the only thing on my mind. :( God, I thought leadership was my gift? Why, then, am I being bad at it? :(
Also, I think I'd have time for other stuff if it didn't take me so dag on long to do my schoolwork. Such as reading, takes me forever to read one chapter in a lousy textbook. Also, studying. Takes me forever to do that, too. I'm just not an effective studier. Not anymore. Not this semester. What has HAPPENED to me?
I thought you wanted me to go out and DO things this year God! Why am I so bogged down with school work?
Ugh.