hot_foot_steph | (no subject)

So Julie and Shay were in a wreck last night. There was a car driving in the wrong lane and Shay swerved to avoid a head on collision and the car hit the backside of Shay's car and Shay's car ran into the guardrail. Julie wasn't wearing her seatbelt. She said that if the car had been positioned some other way or whatever (I don't remember what she said), she would've been dead. Tom was behind her in the backseat and apparently reached out and used his arms as a "seat belt" for her.

I'm glad they're okay, but I'm kind of dreading how things will be from now on. Shay just wrote a message on our dry erase board to Julie saying how the wreck brought them closer together. Is it bad to almost wish *I* was in the wreck so maybe *I* could join in in this "togetherness? Hope wasn't in it, but she's not the fourth wheel.

I was just going to sleep when Julie knocked on the dorm door and I opened it to see her, Shay, Tom and Tilly standing outside. I gave hugs to Julie and Shay and was almost crying 'cause of what happened and said hello to Tom and Tilly who came in our dorm and sat around Julie's computer and started talking.

I participated in the conversation, but as it went on, I was excluded. I guess I'm just not interesting enough. So I gave up, pulled the covers up over me and pretended to fall asleep, and a few minutes later they all decided to leave to go down to the S.A.C. without a word of goodbye.

After they left, I started crying again. I really, really hate this. I am having a miserable time here...and it's not just with the "Julie clan."

It is almost 1:30 P.M.; I woke up at noon. I'm incredibly bored and have no idea what I will do today. All I know is hanging around with the Julie clan will undoubtedly depress me, so I'll probably TRY to have "fun" with some other people...if Stephanie can find any.

I hate this. I really hate this.

"I'm on the outside, I'm looking in..."