Prone to Wander

but I cursed God. Like, literally cursed him. I was like, "F you and your plan and your Son is f-ed up. If this is the kind of God you are then I don't want you. So if you want save me, fine, send me to Hell, I don't care. In fact, do it now. I test you!!!" etc. =\ The Bible says that if you blaspheme against the Holy Spirit, you won't be forgiven. And Job's wife told Job to "Curse God and die." Well, I cursed God. Does this mean He won't forgive me? =\