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survey thingy
Aug. 30th, 2003 05:33 pm*NOTE* Dudes, I am SO SORRY this is so long. I TRIED to do the lj cut and FAILED! I forgot how to do it Carroll! Forgive me! Ahhh! Read it anyway? ;)
Number of times I have been in love: once. now.
Number of times I have had my heart broken: once.
Number of hearts I have broken: hopefully none.
Number of boys I have kissed in my life: one.
Number of girls I have kissed: none
Number of continents I have visited: zero...'cause I LIVE in this one...so if I LIVE in it I can't VISIT it. ;)
Number of drugs taken illegally: none
Number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: two
Number of people from high school that I stayed in contact with: haha. So far I've only called one. And guess what? She was drunk or something and didn't call back. So now I'm scarred (and yes I meant to say "scarred" not "scared"). I'm scared to call anyone else 'cause I figure they won't WANT to talk to me. But I DID talk to Megan today. :) She, at least, seemed to miss me...a little? ;) Yeah.
Number of cd's that I own: approximately 100
Number of piercings: zero (OH MY GOSH! I COPIED AND PASTED THIS FROM BLAIR! I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO DIDN'T HAVE EXACTLY ONE PIERCING!!!)
Number of tattoos: zero
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: I'm not sure. A few.
Number of scars on my body: a significant amount...I don't feel like counting
Number of people that has made me scared of what they could do to me physically: hmmm...3?
Number of things in my past that I regret: You can't count something like that...if I sin...I regret it. And I sin daily. But MAJOR things? Well...ummm...let me think. Actually I'm not sure. I've never done anything REALLY REALLY BIG AND BAD (in HUMAN terms, mind you) yet...and I hope I never do.
I see: my computer
I need: to have Jared hold me
I find: that I canNOT wish to be somebody or LIKE somebody else. They may seem perfect...but you find out that they're really NOT all that godly and great as they seem. Not that I am, but every time I see somebody who seems, quote, "better" than me...I get depressed. I'm learning not to do that anymore, 'cause Jesus loves me JUST AS I AM.
I want: to marry Jared
I have: a fearful heart
I wish: my friends here could understand and respect me like I understand and respect them
I love: Jesus
I hate: not trusting Jesus
I miss: Jared, my parents, my youth group, certain special people, and my old youth pastor Mark
I fear: not marrying Jared
I feel: like giving up with this friendship thing
I hear: Julie, my roommate, talking to her mom
I smell: a fruit cereal bar
I crave: faith
I search: for understanding
I wonder: what God's REALLY going to do with me in life
I regret: taking matters into my own hands instead of giving them to God and following Him to whatever my destination is for that day, minute, second...
When was the last time you ...
Smiled?: when Jared told me that the first thing he was going to do when he sees me again at Christmas is "so kiss you...many times."
Laughed?: when Andy, in this singing group on campus that I am in, thought, in the song Ukranian Bell Carol, where it says "While people sing," that it was "white people sing." (wow that sentence had a lot of commas)
Cried?: yesterday
Bought something?: yesterday...a student planner and the Finding Nemo turtle for Hope that she kept telling us she wanted....see what a great friend I am to people? SO WHAT HAPPENED TO RETURNING THAT? Dude, seriously, if they're NOT my friends, couldn't they be honest about it instead of leading me on to believe they really ARE my friends? Dude. I'm so serious. This is just NOT right.
Danced?: yesterday, down the length of the dorm hall...or was I running to get exercise? Dude, I don't know. But I dance randomly. Maybe it was yesterday during my hearing of "Cry Me A River."
Were sarcastic?: during Hope and Julie and I's apparent "misconceptions" of Missy Elliott's song.
Kissed someone?: a little over a week ago I kissed my parents goodbye for college
Talked to an ex?: haha. I've never had a boyfriend before this dude.
first girlfriend i ever had: i've never had a girlfriend. I'm sorry.
Watched your favorite movie?: last Christmas. "Home Alone 2" with my wonderful cousins. Aw. I miss them. :(
Had a nightmare?: a couple nights ago.
A Last time for everything ...
Last book you read: "The Fountainhead" by Ayn Rand...but I haven't finished it yet.
Last movie you saw: "Coyote Ugly"
Last song you heard: "Fireworks and Phonecalls," Brandtson
Last thing you had to drink: Mountain Dew
Last time you showered: ha. yesterday morning. I stink. I'm seriously getting ready to shower!
Last thing you ate: fruit cereal bar
Do You ...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Have sex?: no
Sleep with stuffed animals?: I used to not...but since I'm having a BUTTLOAD time going to sleep, I sleep with this small duck stuffed animal that says this prayer in a cute little boy or girl's voice...Julie bought it for me 'cause I said nobody's ever bought me a stuffed animal before...except for like, my parents...but that was when I was a little little girl
Live in the moment?: I'm learning to. And getting a LOT better at it. Be proud of me. :)
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: YEAH MAN. LIKE CRAZY I DO.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: haha. It's been a while, but there's this store with a bunch of Juliana Theory shirts and other band shirts that keeps on replaying in my dreams...and every time it happens I think it's real. "This time...the store really IS real!" haha.
Play an instrument?: piano...and my voice.
Believe there is life on other planets?: I don't care
Remember your first love?: Yes.
Still love him/her?: Yes. Most definitely.
Read the newspaper?: not totally
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: I don't think so...not that I know of. But if they were, I'd still accept them and love them.
Believe in miracles?: definitely
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: what is "faithful?" Can a human be completely faithful? Wouldn't that constitute not ever sinning against Jesus OR a friend OR a significant other? So...um...YES...but if you want to get TECHNICALLY TECHNICAL about it...no.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: definitely
Consider love a mistake?: absolutely not
Have any secrets?: yes
Have any pets: yes. "SHADOW MY LOVE!!!"
Do well in school?: yes
Go to or plan to go to college?: yes
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: No (haha...but all the people online that I talk to now were strangers at first and I talked to them) :)
Wear hats?: nah. bandannas though.
Have any piercings?: no man. stop asking the same questions.
Have any tattoos?: N-O spells "NO"
Hate yourself?: sometimes
Have an obsession?: marrying or not marrying Jared, trusting Jesus, faith, worry...yeah.
Have a secret crush?: Hm. I think crush means "attraction" and NOTHING ELSE. So yes. I have a "crush" on Jon from Vroom.
Do they know yet?: HAHA! Dude...I would NEVER (well, I've learned now to never) tell someone I had merely a crush on them. If I was in love with them, yes, but not a "crush" 'cause it's SO not the same thing. JARED, the boy I am IN LOVE with, yes...of COURSE he knows I'm in love with him. ;)
Collect anything?: music
Have a best friend?: yes
Wish on stars?: no
Like your handwriting?: sometimes
Number of times I have been in love: once. now.
Number of times I have had my heart broken: once.
Number of hearts I have broken: hopefully none.
Number of boys I have kissed in my life: one.
Number of girls I have kissed: none
Number of continents I have visited: zero...'cause I LIVE in this one...so if I LIVE in it I can't VISIT it. ;)
Number of drugs taken illegally: none
Number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: two
Number of people from high school that I stayed in contact with: haha. So far I've only called one. And guess what? She was drunk or something and didn't call back. So now I'm scarred (and yes I meant to say "scarred" not "scared"). I'm scared to call anyone else 'cause I figure they won't WANT to talk to me. But I DID talk to Megan today. :) She, at least, seemed to miss me...a little? ;) Yeah.
Number of cd's that I own: approximately 100
Number of piercings: zero (OH MY GOSH! I COPIED AND PASTED THIS FROM BLAIR! I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO DIDN'T HAVE EXACTLY ONE PIERCING!!!)
Number of tattoos: zero
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: I'm not sure. A few.
Number of scars on my body: a significant amount...I don't feel like counting
Number of people that has made me scared of what they could do to me physically: hmmm...3?
Number of things in my past that I regret: You can't count something like that...if I sin...I regret it. And I sin daily. But MAJOR things? Well...ummm...let me think. Actually I'm not sure. I've never done anything REALLY REALLY BIG AND BAD (in HUMAN terms, mind you) yet...and I hope I never do.
I see: my computer
I need: to have Jared hold me
I find: that I canNOT wish to be somebody or LIKE somebody else. They may seem perfect...but you find out that they're really NOT all that godly and great as they seem. Not that I am, but every time I see somebody who seems, quote, "better" than me...I get depressed. I'm learning not to do that anymore, 'cause Jesus loves me JUST AS I AM.
I want: to marry Jared
I have: a fearful heart
I wish: my friends here could understand and respect me like I understand and respect them
I love: Jesus
I hate: not trusting Jesus
I miss: Jared, my parents, my youth group, certain special people, and my old youth pastor Mark
I fear: not marrying Jared
I feel: like giving up with this friendship thing
I hear: Julie, my roommate, talking to her mom
I smell: a fruit cereal bar
I crave: faith
I search: for understanding
I wonder: what God's REALLY going to do with me in life
I regret: taking matters into my own hands instead of giving them to God and following Him to whatever my destination is for that day, minute, second...
When was the last time you ...
Smiled?: when Jared told me that the first thing he was going to do when he sees me again at Christmas is "so kiss you...many times."
Laughed?: when Andy, in this singing group on campus that I am in, thought, in the song Ukranian Bell Carol, where it says "While people sing," that it was "white people sing." (wow that sentence had a lot of commas)
Cried?: yesterday
Bought something?: yesterday...a student planner and the Finding Nemo turtle for Hope that she kept telling us she wanted....see what a great friend I am to people? SO WHAT HAPPENED TO RETURNING THAT? Dude, seriously, if they're NOT my friends, couldn't they be honest about it instead of leading me on to believe they really ARE my friends? Dude. I'm so serious. This is just NOT right.
Danced?: yesterday, down the length of the dorm hall...or was I running to get exercise? Dude, I don't know. But I dance randomly. Maybe it was yesterday during my hearing of "Cry Me A River."
Were sarcastic?: during Hope and Julie and I's apparent "misconceptions" of Missy Elliott's song.
Kissed someone?: a little over a week ago I kissed my parents goodbye for college
Talked to an ex?: haha. I've never had a boyfriend before this dude.
first girlfriend i ever had: i've never had a girlfriend. I'm sorry.
Watched your favorite movie?: last Christmas. "Home Alone 2" with my wonderful cousins. Aw. I miss them. :(
Had a nightmare?: a couple nights ago.
A Last time for everything ...
Last book you read: "The Fountainhead" by Ayn Rand...but I haven't finished it yet.
Last movie you saw: "Coyote Ugly"
Last song you heard: "Fireworks and Phonecalls," Brandtson
Last thing you had to drink: Mountain Dew
Last time you showered: ha. yesterday morning. I stink. I'm seriously getting ready to shower!
Last thing you ate: fruit cereal bar
Do You ...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Have sex?: no
Sleep with stuffed animals?: I used to not...but since I'm having a BUTTLOAD time going to sleep, I sleep with this small duck stuffed animal that says this prayer in a cute little boy or girl's voice...Julie bought it for me 'cause I said nobody's ever bought me a stuffed animal before...except for like, my parents...but that was when I was a little little girl
Live in the moment?: I'm learning to. And getting a LOT better at it. Be proud of me. :)
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: YEAH MAN. LIKE CRAZY I DO.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: haha. It's been a while, but there's this store with a bunch of Juliana Theory shirts and other band shirts that keeps on replaying in my dreams...and every time it happens I think it's real. "This time...the store really IS real!" haha.
Play an instrument?: piano...and my voice.
Believe there is life on other planets?: I don't care
Remember your first love?: Yes.
Still love him/her?: Yes. Most definitely.
Read the newspaper?: not totally
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: I don't think so...not that I know of. But if they were, I'd still accept them and love them.
Believe in miracles?: definitely
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: what is "faithful?" Can a human be completely faithful? Wouldn't that constitute not ever sinning against Jesus OR a friend OR a significant other? So...um...YES...but if you want to get TECHNICALLY TECHNICAL about it...no.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: definitely
Consider love a mistake?: absolutely not
Have any secrets?: yes
Have any pets: yes. "SHADOW MY LOVE!!!"
Do well in school?: yes
Go to or plan to go to college?: yes
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: No (haha...but all the people online that I talk to now were strangers at first and I talked to them) :)
Wear hats?: nah. bandannas though.
Have any piercings?: no man. stop asking the same questions.
Have any tattoos?: N-O spells "NO"
Hate yourself?: sometimes
Have an obsession?: marrying or not marrying Jared, trusting Jesus, faith, worry...yeah.
Have a secret crush?: Hm. I think crush means "attraction" and NOTHING ELSE. So yes. I have a "crush" on Jon from Vroom.
Do they know yet?: HAHA! Dude...I would NEVER (well, I've learned now to never) tell someone I had merely a crush on them. If I was in love with them, yes, but not a "crush" 'cause it's SO not the same thing. JARED, the boy I am IN LOVE with, yes...of COURSE he knows I'm in love with him. ;)
Collect anything?: music
Have a best friend?: yes
Wish on stars?: no
Like your handwriting?: sometimes
