"Sixteen year old sex sells to a middle-aged man in a board room, makes big decisions..."

I just talked with my mom. It was nice. I needed to talk to her. I also spent time with God today, and that was nice as well. I wrote in my prayer journal and read some of my Bible while listening to some Relient K.

I've lost sight of God. I need Him back. I need Him to be my primary focus in life again. I need not let things not going so well between Jared and I to make my relationship with God suffer. I need to learn to trust in Him with EVERYTHING even if life isn't pleasant and the one thing I WANT in life isn't certain.

It's SO hard. =\ SO hard. I mean I can't even describe how hard it is, dude.

I'm just so confused on the direction of my life right now. And as some of you know, I HATE being unsure of aspects of my future...and I'm unsure of ALL of it as of right now.

Everyone, could you pray for me? And Jared and I? And Jared himself? Thanks guys. I really appreciate it.