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Guys, please pray for me, if you want to.
I'm just...I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been feeling really weak and sick lately, in a weird sense. I mean I don't feel terribly bad, but I just feel...weak. I haven't gotten much sleep lately, but it's not like I've only gotten 2 hours of sleep each night or something. I mean, for the past few days I've still gotten about 6.
I've decided to drink all water for this entire week; Cassidy said you lose 10 pounds that way, and while weight loss is not really important to me, I want to see what it does to me. I've been drinking water a lot lately. That shouldn't make me WEAK, should it? I'm just confused. Am I doing something wrong? I work out Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, and I'm certainly not overworking myself. Is it just stress? And I haven't even been stressing out very much either. Well, not REALly. I guess?
I've been trying to eat better, too. More vegetables and stuff, but I usually do one healthy meal, and then one whatever-the-heck-I-want-to-eat meal, which usually consists of pizza and fries in our cafeteria. And soda or something. But right NOW I'm only doing water for this week. Just to see what happens. Usually, when I eat vegetable, good-for-you-stuff from our cafeteria (heh, I wonder if THAT'S it), I don't fill up that great and don't enjoy what I'm eating. I still eat. And I eat normally. You know, like I don't just eat an apple or something. I try to eat from all the 5 food groups, even if I DON'T exactly enjoy what I'm eating. So I usually pig out whenever I eat "good" food (also known as not-as-good-for-you food). And I usually interchange between every meal.
Errr. What's wrong? Am I doing something wrong?
I just...feel dizzy-ish and weak. True, I could just be coming down with something that is totally independent of how I'm eating/drinking/sleeping/exercising...but...I've also been noticing a more...physically personal problem, too. It's not big or that big of a deal I don't think, it's just that I worry about every little thing. But it's kind of...weird.
I hope trying to be healthy hasn't made me UNhealthy. I mean, I'm not overworking myself and my goal is not to lose weight! (Well, a little would be nice, mainly in the tummy area, but I'm realizing now that my stomach really isn't that pudgy...and who really CARES?! PUDGY IS FIIIINE! There is nothing wrong with a pudgy stomach. Good grief, I'm realizing how STUPID this is all sounding.)
I'm not TRYING to do anything unhealthy for my body here! I'm not! It's not LIKE that. It's not like I think I'm fat and I think "thin is beautiful." It is nothing like that.
Although...I AM a little over-concerned about the food/drink I eat and how I look?
Gah. Everybody cares about how they look to SOME extent!
Maybe I'm just ashamed to admit that I've stooped so low to care so much about how I look like, especially since Jared tells me I'm beautiful all the time and *I* know I'm not UGly. I'm not super gorgeous, but I'm above average, I'd say, in human terms, and besides, what is pretty? Everyone is beautiful. There IS no one who is more beautiful than anyone else. That term shouldn't exist. When I say "above average" I am JUST using that term lightly to explain that I DO think I'm kind of pretty sometimes.
Gah. I'm thinking too much.
And I have a BUNCH of papers and tests coming up, all at the same times. I'm really stressed about that.
And my period's coming soon. Should be, anyhow. Could that be a contributing reason? Still...this is kind of weird.
I love Jared. He is amazing. I am SERIOUS. That boy... *swoon*
P.S. IIII got Relient K's Chriiiistmas album. <3
I'm just...I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been feeling really weak and sick lately, in a weird sense. I mean I don't feel terribly bad, but I just feel...weak. I haven't gotten much sleep lately, but it's not like I've only gotten 2 hours of sleep each night or something. I mean, for the past few days I've still gotten about 6.
I've decided to drink all water for this entire week; Cassidy said you lose 10 pounds that way, and while weight loss is not really important to me, I want to see what it does to me. I've been drinking water a lot lately. That shouldn't make me WEAK, should it? I'm just confused. Am I doing something wrong? I work out Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, and I'm certainly not overworking myself. Is it just stress? And I haven't even been stressing out very much either. Well, not REALly. I guess?
I've been trying to eat better, too. More vegetables and stuff, but I usually do one healthy meal, and then one whatever-the-heck-I-want-to-eat meal, which usually consists of pizza and fries in our cafeteria. And soda or something. But right NOW I'm only doing water for this week. Just to see what happens. Usually, when I eat vegetable, good-for-you-stuff from our cafeteria (heh, I wonder if THAT'S it), I don't fill up that great and don't enjoy what I'm eating. I still eat. And I eat normally. You know, like I don't just eat an apple or something. I try to eat from all the 5 food groups, even if I DON'T exactly enjoy what I'm eating. So I usually pig out whenever I eat "good" food (also known as not-as-good-for-you food). And I usually interchange between every meal.
Errr. What's wrong? Am I doing something wrong?
I just...feel dizzy-ish and weak. True, I could just be coming down with something that is totally independent of how I'm eating/drinking/sleeping/exercising...but...I've also been noticing a more...physically personal problem, too. It's not big or that big of a deal I don't think, it's just that I worry about every little thing. But it's kind of...weird.
I hope trying to be healthy hasn't made me UNhealthy. I mean, I'm not overworking myself and my goal is not to lose weight! (Well, a little would be nice, mainly in the tummy area, but I'm realizing now that my stomach really isn't that pudgy...and who really CARES?! PUDGY IS FIIIINE! There is nothing wrong with a pudgy stomach. Good grief, I'm realizing how STUPID this is all sounding.)
I'm not TRYING to do anything unhealthy for my body here! I'm not! It's not LIKE that. It's not like I think I'm fat and I think "thin is beautiful." It is nothing like that.
Although...I AM a little over-concerned about the food/drink I eat and how I look?
Gah. Everybody cares about how they look to SOME extent!
Maybe I'm just ashamed to admit that I've stooped so low to care so much about how I look like, especially since Jared tells me I'm beautiful all the time and *I* know I'm not UGly. I'm not super gorgeous, but I'm above average, I'd say, in human terms, and besides, what is pretty? Everyone is beautiful. There IS no one who is more beautiful than anyone else. That term shouldn't exist. When I say "above average" I am JUST using that term lightly to explain that I DO think I'm kind of pretty sometimes.
Gah. I'm thinking too much.
And I have a BUNCH of papers and tests coming up, all at the same times. I'm really stressed about that.
And my period's coming soon. Should be, anyhow. Could that be a contributing reason? Still...this is kind of weird.
I love Jared. He is amazing. I am SERIOUS. That boy... *swoon*
P.S. IIII got Relient K's Chriiiistmas album. <3
