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Okay...so can you guys tell that I really don't feel like typing out my notes to study?

Feudalism:  a system of economic organization.  A political relationship between lord and vassals.  Consisted ofnobles, preiests, and peasants. The charactersiotiocs of feudalism are as follows: set up by an oath of loyalty and mutual obligation between a lord and vassal, wealth based on agriculture and land.  Independent on a local level; decentralized.  Military dominated by aristocirac y andknights

Constantine:  was A roman emperor in Rome during the crisis of the 3^rd century. 

He fought in one of the civil wars and established CHristniaty as the official religion.  He also moved his capital to Constantispnoelpk which is noat winstabul.

 

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*sigh* Why don't I quit? Why do I keep going after people I want to be friends with that are just SO COOL in my eyes who couldn't care less about being friends with me?

Face it, Stephanie, Shay doesn't want to be your friend. She didn't answer you the 5 times you asked her why she didn't put the birthday card you got her for her birthday on her wall because she really and truly doesn't want to have much to do with you.

Truth is...this really isn't affecting me as it had before...because...I'm....................

...so used to it.

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Hmmm...I want everyone to read my following journal entry. Don't skim over it. It may be long, but please, read it carefully. I'm not saying you will believe or agree with what I am saying...but I have just been struck with one of my deepest reasonings about the God of the Bible that has convinced me to believe even MORE so than everything else I've ever thought of in my short life. I beg you, please read it ALL.

So why would a God of love send people who didn't love Him back to Hell? If I had someone who didn't love me back, *I* certainly wouldn't send him to Hell.

Let's examine this.
Question 1: Is God a human?
Question 2: Are we open-minded enough to UNDERSTAND that we CAN'T understand? Are we open-minded enough to realize that, as hard as it may seem to think that there are other reasonings to something that EVERY human would agree on logically (and universally), that there actually may be if a God does exist?

Conclusion: God sent Jesus to show us humans, as best He could, HOW he really loved us, thus why Jesus was perfect and like God. BUT...the only way he could do that WAS to send himself in human form so that WE AS HUMANS could understand, even just a LITTLE bit, the mind of God. So it doesn't make sense to believe in a generic God who loves us, because we wouldn't understand, or KNOW, was love was. But then again, in a sense, God is still restricted, because He is an ENTIRELY different being from us...and think about it...does a dog understand how its owner loves it? Does it understand when the owner cries because it's dying? No. So what do we do to help it understand? Well, if you're my grandfather (which none of you are I don't think) ;), you'll take your dog to McDonald's and buy it a cheeseburger to eat right before it has to be put to sleep. No matter what you do, however, you STILL cannot make a dog understand your love. A dog's logic will not, no matter HOW much it thinks through things, understand completely. So what do you do? Well, you make yourself into a dog and place it (virginally) in a dog's womb and make the dog half-human, which will either have the dogs barking to each other, "Wow, this dog talks like a human but makes us understand by barking like a dog" or "This dog doesn't make sense. Let's kill him 'cause he's scary." And of course, we all know that humanly, it is impossible to make ourselves into dogs while still staying human...er, come to think of it...we can't make ourselves into dogs anyway. ;) But this is exactly what God did...he made himself into a human to help us to understand. But just like the dogs don't understand fully because, even though their Messiah Dog is half-human, he is still a dog, Jesus was ALSO restricted into being just like God because he HAD to be a human TOO, thus this is WHY He could not possibly explain the concept of Hell to the humans.

I think it is so cool how, even though we can't understand God, he recreated the scenario between God and humans with other things in life. In other words, I love how we can demonstrate NOT understanding God with an understandable HUMAN-MADE example from HUMAN life.

We CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT understand why a loving God would send people to Hell. After all, if he really hated sin and had to be apart from it, why did he CREATE us with sin? If you think about it, is it really OUR fault that Jesus died on the cross? Wouldn't it be God's, since he created us as humans who, by DEFINITION, are imperfect? It's not our fault, because we can't do ANYTHING about that.

These are questions NO one can answer, even the deepest minded scholastic Christian.

But if God is different to humans, like humans are to dogs, then humans, in fact, CAN understand by simply saying, "I don't understand" and realizing that the very fact that we CAN'T understand means that there IS something TO understand about the concept. This should make us KNOW that the concept IS understandable to Someone!!!

The end. *gets off soapbox*

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By the way, I edited and re-edited a little bit of my previous journal entry about my revelation, so go back and make sure you read my latest revision if you read it before 2:55 A.M.!

Dude I need to go to sleep.

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I just bit into a piece of molded bread.

My Old Testament exam was super hard, but super attainable, because who studied? I studied.

I got a professional massage, free, here at school yesterday. Ah, the joys of being at a small, private college in a rural town.

...I always think that whatever I said/thought that seemed so amazing to me the night before is stupid the next morning. :( Messiah Dogs? Come on now, Stephanie. Oh well, God says He uses our failures for good. But all the time?

I am growing ever more so obsessed with grammar and spelling and word choice in all of my classes. I mean, it's gotten to the point where it's unnecessary, like I'll write "demonstrated" instead of "showed" to sound smarter. Today, in my Old Testament exam, I scratched out "The first lesson the Jews learned was no more idolatry" and put "The first lesson the Jews learned was to stop their idol worship" just because it sounded better. But in actuality, how I phrased the sentence would not have altered my grade in the slightest.

Why, all of a sudden, do I want to double major in Christian Studies and Biology with a minor in Chemistry? Or double major AND double minor with the following prospects: Christian Studies, Biology, Psychology, and Communications?

My problem is that I just want to know everything and learn all there is to learn. And I think it's cool to know that one can hold their feces forever until it has to be surgically removed from the body... Yeah, that's a true statement. I learned it from Erin. Not that you believe everything you hear...but really...ALL of us ultimately believe what we hear/read, right? Right.

I think I'm done. My World Civilizations exam is in about 54 minutes exactly (haha...I said "about exactly").

I keep almost falling off my bed, and it's high up now since I made it into a loft. Not good.

I did a little dance today.

My next beta fish WILL be named Ophelia, from the play Hamlet.