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Sep. 15th, 2003 04:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hot_foot_stephGah! Ignored...AGAIN! This time by a completely DIFFERENT person. I hate this. Honestly. I really REALLY do. I...am...going...to...SCREAM. Does God WANT me to live a life of independence all the time? 'Cause it wouldn't seem so...I'm such a depending kind of person. I depend on people for my faith when it gets rocky. I depend on people to tell me I'm pretty 'cause I hardly ever believe it. I depend on people to assure me I'm not insane. I depend on people to love me to the extent where I'm not being confident anymore.
I'm not confident at all.
I need to stop relying on people (namely Jared) for things that I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO RELY ON THEM FOR. There are some things I can self-assure myself of. I don't NEED for other people to assure me of them. That shows huge weakness. I feel like a spoiled brat. Dangit.
I feel so sheltered and spoiled and crap. Dangit. WHY oh WHY is Jared staying with me? WHY? Honestly...I don't understand how he can put up with someone so STUPID, FRAGILE, SPOILED, SHELTERED, and DEPENDENT.
Dang.
I'm not confident at all.
I need to stop relying on people (namely Jared) for things that I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO RELY ON THEM FOR. There are some things I can self-assure myself of. I don't NEED for other people to assure me of them. That shows huge weakness. I feel like a spoiled brat. Dangit.
I feel so sheltered and spoiled and crap. Dangit. WHY oh WHY is Jared staying with me? WHY? Honestly...I don't understand how he can put up with someone so STUPID, FRAGILE, SPOILED, SHELTERED, and DEPENDENT.
Dang.
