hot_foot_steph | "Everyone needs a smile, ya know..."

WHY do I even TRY to make friends? Honestly.

I don't know how to talk to boys (which I guess shouldn't matter because I HAVE a boyfriend who I am going to marry...but it's still frustrating that no guys seem to have any interest in me on a friendship level...at all.)

Seriously...people keep telling me that it's "not me," but what if it is? What if everyone telling me this is just...wrong?

I guess it's my personality. People just must NOT like it.

Or does God WANT it like this?

Good gosh. WHY do I even try? Honestly?

I want to cry. There I am, walking back to the dorm in the pouring rain with my umbrella, pathetically on the verge of tears because of being ignored by a few people.

I hate it. I do.

And here I am, jealous of my roommate just because.