"We're taking over the world...we're the alien youth..."

[hot_foot_steph]

WHY did God give me this passion to save the world?

I just watched Legally Blonde II. Wasn't nearly as good or funny as the first one. Oh well.

I had a wonderful Christmas. I got to see my cousins, aunts/uncles, and grandparents. My little cousin Bently is so cute. He's two. He asks "why?" for everything. "Why do that, why?" :D We were walking outside my aunt Anna's house and I pointed to the sky and told him it was cloudless today. And he asks, "Why?" and I said "Because that's what God wanted to do today." "Why do that, why?" And then he told me he wanted to touch it. And I said we were too small, but we could try. So we both reached up in the air as far as he could. I said "Reach, reach!" and then I get a "why reach?" Hehe. He's so precious. He's my mom's sister's adopted son. We also sang "Jesus Loves Me" together while walking through the country fields of my great aunt's house. It was precious. I want to be a mother someday. I just hope I'll be a good one.

Samantha, Tyler, my brother and I all went to see "Mona Lisa Smile" (girls' idea, of course) ;) day after Christmas. We also watched "Freaky Friday" and "Daddy Day Care" on Tyler's portable DVD player at Granny's house. Samantha has a boyfriend now, Steve. Sometimes I feel stupid, because I'm older than all of them - Samantha's 16 and Tyler's 13- and yet I'm STILL the only grandchild who likes to preserve family traditions. I kind of feel...dumb. I mean, with me being 19, shouldn't *I* be the one to be all nonchalant and bored with it like Samantha and Tyler are seeming to become? I don't know...I just, family is VERY important to me. *shrug*

My mom is now on medication for depression again. Kind of depressing. Who ISN'T on medication though, dude?

I WISH I could do everything at once. I WISH I could make up my mind on what I want to do with my life. I WISH I wasn't so timid. And lazy.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas... (and Chanukah) ;)

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Comments

Family

[sirkenneth.livejournal.com]

I think that Family and tradition are very important, and I don't think that there is anything wrong with how you feel.

I think that the fact that your younger siblings aren't interested could be that they're not mature enough to appreciate it, or they could be taking it for granted. This is purely speculation on my part, though.

Yesterday I had mentioned to my mom that I wanted to find out more about my family history/ancestors/relatives, because we don't have contact with many relatives, and the ones we do see are all dying or have died. She told me that we have a relative in Cape Cod who is interested in geneology and I plan on asking my grandmother about it and writing him a letter.

I feel like I lost out a lot of things because ever since my parents got divorced, we lost touch with a lot of people we used to see regularly.

It makes me want to 4 or more kids so that when they are growing up they have people to rely on, instead of feeling like they had to do it all themselves like I do/did.

[saralbara.livejournal.com]

I'm soooo naming my kid Bently. Just because I'll never actually have a Bently...maybe I'll name him Beamer.