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[hot_foot_steph]

I am so confused. SO confused.

I just read the first chapter in my Intro to Psychology book. It was titled "What makes psychology a science?" And I'm just confused I guess. I'm confused on who God is.

Dammit, I'm just...so CONFUSED. I cannot settle down and relax when I feel as though my very beliefs and salvation are in jeopardy.

Who's right, dude?

Why did God give us a brain?

What is truth? Seriously. What is the definition of truth and how can ANYTHING really be truth if skeptics question facts as well? 'Cause if they question facts, they have to question science. What is science? Our journey to the mind of God? So why does it lead some people away from God? Why did the people of Paleolithic, etc. times have the instinct of there being a higher power? How come now, people who don't believe there is a God deny it?

Is it WRONG to believe in God blindly? Is it WRONG to close the mind off to all these swirling psychological thoughts and just be like "I BELIEVE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY!"? Is it BAD to be ignorant by choice? 'Cause that's what I'm doing right now. No, I'm not being ignorant...I'm just scared to learn. Shows how much freaking faith STEPHANIE has. "I'm too scared that the more I learn the more my faith will be discredited within me." How freaking messed UP is that? I'm AFRAID of learning. I want to learn, but I'm afraid of it. What does this tell you?

Am I a blind believer? If I'm blind, does that REALLY make me a believer? What IS a believer? How much faith is enough? Is salvation REALLY ultimately God's choice or not?

If every human can have different opinions shaped by their experiences, who brings about experiences? Experiences aren't in the head. So psychology HAS to connect with SOME sort of "outside force." Maybe?

I am going, literally, insane. I can't relax to save my life. If I'm not secure that I am going to be in Heaven with Jesus (who I struggle with so much unbelief in, dammit), I canNOT relax no matter WHAT you tell me. People who are experts in knowing how to cope with stress and crap like that...they WON'T be able to help me if this is my primary concern. 'Cause what CAN help you unless someone convinces you you're saved? And who can do that? Who but God can convince you? And what if he doesn't seem to be doing that at the time? How am I supposed to KNOW there is a God? How am I supposed to KNOW I am saved? How...do...I...KNOW? And what if there's a different god up there?

Do I believe blindly? Partially, yes.

Dude, I suck.

Nothing can calm me down right now. Except for maybe other people. Perhaps I should go...find somebody. I'm in my dorm room alone.

This SUCKS dude. I HATE life if I am not convinced of an afterlife with the God of the Bible. So either this means He DOES exist for why ELSE would I be like this, or that I have been brainwashed.

Which...is...it?

Comments

[lauraaudrey.livejournal.com]

Steph - you do not suck, dear. That very thought crosses my mind every Sunday as I'm sitting in Sunday School. Is it WRONG to not truly know why you believe what you believe? And it makes me feel almost guilty that I'm having those thoughts. I'm sorry, I don't have any wise words or wise solutions for you, but I just pray about it, talk about it and read my bible and try to understand was much as possible...

But the moral of the story is, you do not suck =) They're totally normal thoughts.

[rissainthesky.livejournal.com]

I miss our religion debates, Steph!

I dont have much time to really say what it adequate on this topic, but here's my quick 2 cents on religon as of late:

- if G-d wanted humans to believe Him to be a certain way, I really think he'd have enough control to make us all see Him that way.

Hence, I think G-d wants us to believe in Him as we wish. He wanted a diverse people, who made us intelligent enough to learn how the things He created work. Hence, Science is how I personally believe G-d created everything, and how it all works. Science isnt 100 percent because we havent completely learned it all yet, and as humans, we are imperfect.

In my view, I dont think that G-d cares how we worship Him-- I think He cares more how we treat our fellow humans. Every religion, at its core, is about love. Judaism, Christianity, Hinduism, Islam-- its about peace and love. The human perversion of each religion turns it to something else. Which is why I think organized religion, for the most part, is completely opposite of what G-d intended.

I think its wonderful that you struggle with your beliefs, Steph. I struggle about my faith a lot. Some days I don't believe in G-d. Other days I wonder how I doubt Him. My philosophy is that I wont KNOW until I die. So I am not going to focus on it now.

Then again, my religion doesnt have that whole salvation/hell aspect, so its probably a lot more stressful for you.

an old age earth....

[(Anonymous)]

On the idea that the world is 6,000 yers old...or even 12,000....
Christian scientists read and studied the Bible and deduced the "age" of the Earth without considering one factor: The Bible says nothing on the amount of time that Adam and Eve spent in the Garden of Eden. It is most likely that millions of years passed in time on the earth outside the Garden, while the Garden itself and its occupants remained untouched by the passage of time due to the fact that they were a constant in the presence of God. Once Adam and Eve sinned and were removed from that presence, they were cast out and became part of an already populated world.