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Sep. 8th, 2003 09:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hot_foot_stephI am so confused. SO confused.
I just read the first chapter in my Intro to Psychology book. It was titled "What makes psychology a science?" And I'm just confused I guess. I'm confused on who God is.
Dammit, I'm just...so CONFUSED. I cannot settle down and relax when I feel as though my very beliefs and salvation are in jeopardy.
Who's right, dude?
Why did God give us a brain?
What is truth? Seriously. What is the definition of truth and how can ANYTHING really be truth if skeptics question facts as well? 'Cause if they question facts, they have to question science. What is science? Our journey to the mind of God? So why does it lead some people away from God? Why did the people of Paleolithic, etc. times have the instinct of there being a higher power? How come now, people who don't believe there is a God deny it?
Is it WRONG to believe in God blindly? Is it WRONG to close the mind off to all these swirling psychological thoughts and just be like "I BELIEVE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY!"? Is it BAD to be ignorant by choice? 'Cause that's what I'm doing right now. No, I'm not being ignorant...I'm just scared to learn. Shows how much freaking faith STEPHANIE has. "I'm too scared that the more I learn the more my faith will be discredited within me." How freaking messed UP is that? I'm AFRAID of learning. I want to learn, but I'm afraid of it. What does this tell you?
Am I a blind believer? If I'm blind, does that REALLY make me a believer? What IS a believer? How much faith is enough? Is salvation REALLY ultimately God's choice or not?
If every human can have different opinions shaped by their experiences, who brings about experiences? Experiences aren't in the head. So psychology HAS to connect with SOME sort of "outside force." Maybe?
I am going, literally, insane. I can't relax to save my life. If I'm not secure that I am going to be in Heaven with Jesus (who I struggle with so much unbelief in, dammit), I canNOT relax no matter WHAT you tell me. People who are experts in knowing how to cope with stress and crap like that...they WON'T be able to help me if this is my primary concern. 'Cause what CAN help you unless someone convinces you you're saved? And who can do that? Who but God can convince you? And what if he doesn't seem to be doing that at the time? How am I supposed to KNOW there is a God? How am I supposed to KNOW I am saved? How...do...I...KNOW? And what if there's a different god up there?
Do I believe blindly? Partially, yes.
Dude, I suck.
Nothing can calm me down right now. Except for maybe other people. Perhaps I should go...find somebody. I'm in my dorm room alone.
This SUCKS dude. I HATE life if I am not convinced of an afterlife with the God of the Bible. So either this means He DOES exist for why ELSE would I be like this, or that I have been brainwashed.
Which...is...it?
I just read the first chapter in my Intro to Psychology book. It was titled "What makes psychology a science?" And I'm just confused I guess. I'm confused on who God is.
Dammit, I'm just...so CONFUSED. I cannot settle down and relax when I feel as though my very beliefs and salvation are in jeopardy.
Who's right, dude?
Why did God give us a brain?
What is truth? Seriously. What is the definition of truth and how can ANYTHING really be truth if skeptics question facts as well? 'Cause if they question facts, they have to question science. What is science? Our journey to the mind of God? So why does it lead some people away from God? Why did the people of Paleolithic, etc. times have the instinct of there being a higher power? How come now, people who don't believe there is a God deny it?
Is it WRONG to believe in God blindly? Is it WRONG to close the mind off to all these swirling psychological thoughts and just be like "I BELIEVE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY!"? Is it BAD to be ignorant by choice? 'Cause that's what I'm doing right now. No, I'm not being ignorant...I'm just scared to learn. Shows how much freaking faith STEPHANIE has. "I'm too scared that the more I learn the more my faith will be discredited within me." How freaking messed UP is that? I'm AFRAID of learning. I want to learn, but I'm afraid of it. What does this tell you?
Am I a blind believer? If I'm blind, does that REALLY make me a believer? What IS a believer? How much faith is enough? Is salvation REALLY ultimately God's choice or not?
If every human can have different opinions shaped by their experiences, who brings about experiences? Experiences aren't in the head. So psychology HAS to connect with SOME sort of "outside force." Maybe?
I am going, literally, insane. I can't relax to save my life. If I'm not secure that I am going to be in Heaven with Jesus (who I struggle with so much unbelief in, dammit), I canNOT relax no matter WHAT you tell me. People who are experts in knowing how to cope with stress and crap like that...they WON'T be able to help me if this is my primary concern. 'Cause what CAN help you unless someone convinces you you're saved? And who can do that? Who but God can convince you? And what if he doesn't seem to be doing that at the time? How am I supposed to KNOW there is a God? How am I supposed to KNOW I am saved? How...do...I...KNOW? And what if there's a different god up there?
Do I believe blindly? Partially, yes.
Dude, I suck.
Nothing can calm me down right now. Except for maybe other people. Perhaps I should go...find somebody. I'm in my dorm room alone.
This SUCKS dude. I HATE life if I am not convinced of an afterlife with the God of the Bible. So either this means He DOES exist for why ELSE would I be like this, or that I have been brainwashed.
Which...is...it?
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Date: 2003-09-08 11:13 pm (UTC)2.) Don't believe everything you read. I know you're probably like "WHAT?! But YOU do!" No, I don't. The Bible's theory on when the earth was created WASN'T 6,000 years ago. I don't know where the HELL you got that... Seriously. I have this idea that you don't read the Bible...that you merely hear what others SAY about it (regardless of HOW "doctor-ish" and "learned" they are) and believe it just because you're alREADY biased against the Bible. Books ARE biased, Rissa. ALL of them. Christian and non. They are ALL BIASED. And you can say I don't read YOURbooks but you don't read MINE either.
3.) God is NOT NOT NOT "religion." God created morals in us, not effing "religion" because "religion" is human-made.
3.) God will exist whether you believe it or not. I know that sounds dumb and obvious...but seriously. It's a good point. You can't go to Hell if it doesn't exist, but you can if it does. What good does THAT argument do?
4.) You're going to hate me for this one, but you know NOTHING about the Christian God, Rissa. You can't find things out from people who AREN'T Christians about the Christian God. Seriously. Not that all CHRISTIANS know what they're talking about...but honestly. You really have no clue. I can tell you have no clue. And maybe I have no clue about what YOU'RE talking about. I accept that maybe that's true. But seriously. You want to know what the Christian God is like? You will HAVE to delve MUCH deeper than this...
-Stephanie
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Date: 2003-09-09 04:02 pm (UTC)- worship is an outward act of your beliefs. But I dont think there is one way to worship or one way to believe. This is something we are just going to disagree on. And I have read the Old Testament, and there's no point in reading the New Testament. Ive said before on the boards why I dont believe in the Bible and I dont have time to go into it here.
- the Jewish calendar is 5760-something (i dont remember the exact year)- hence, the Judeo-Christian belief is that G-d created the earth that many years ago.
- I dont know why you think I believe everything I read, Im exactly the opposite. I doubt everything I read.
- I agree religion is human made. But so are the beliefs, regardless of religion.
Rissa-- let me read more...